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Winter Break BEGINS

YEAH! NO SCHOOL FOR TWO WEEKS!!! Too bad my English teacher gave us a shit load of reading to do. We have to finish all of Great Expectations by the Monday we get back...great...it's like 400+ pages. Today we got out at 12, it was awesome. After lunch with my mom and sis I came home and took a fatty nap. YESSSS. Then I had to go to bball practice which really blew. So now I'm eating takeout chinese food and tonight I'm gonna lay low and watch T.V. and just relax, fewf. Well winter break begins and i'm stoked. Tomorrow i'm gonna smoke for the first time since august woooooooooooooooooooooooo. see ya.

TUM ABUSER RIGHT HERE

Today at school was pretty damn boring. After school I headed over to g-etta and shot some hoops around with my sister and her friend. Then I had basketball. Today was a pretty bad practice becasue our coach was being a major bitch. She was like making us run more than usual (which I don't really mind since I need the excersize) and she was being hella mean. Well while we were running this play i made 3/4 three pointers during the play, so I thought... awesome this is a good time to show off my shooting. Well during our scrimage I missed both of the 3 pointers I shot. And this teammate of mine who was SITTING OUT (let's just say sitting out means your not the best player) said, "DONT TAKE THOSE SHOTS." For some reason it REALLY pissed me off. She coulda said it nicer like, hey, concentrate more, or something. Anyways, I drove home with my dad ( I only have my permit) and he was being super mean and annoying with the way I was driving. It was really putting me in a more pissed off mood. I wasn't driving that well ethier so that made me annoyed at myself. THEN I got home and I eat dinner. Well whenever I eat, whether it's a lot or not I get stomach aches, so I take a TUM to help me. Well I just took one and my mom makes this huge deal about it...."WHAT ARE YOU EATING?!" I reply, " A tum." "Why?" "Because my stomach hurts." "YOU SHOULDNT EAT SO MUCH. HOW MANY OF THOSE A DAY DO YOU HAVE?" "3 tops." "THATS TOO MUCH, YOU SHOULDN'T DO THAT." "Mom it says on the box that you can take up to 10 a day if your stomach ache persists, and they're a calcium supplement." " I DON'T CARE YOU'RE ABUSING TUMS. I'M NOT BUYING THEM AGAIN." So now I'm a TUM abuser. God I'm such a druggie.

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Wednesdays are just as bad as Mondays. This is because Wednesdays are in the middle of the week which means I've been at school for TWO DAYS and because Thursday and Friday seem so long and far away because there are two whole days till the weekend. Ugh. Plus today is a late day for my school meaning I get to school WAYYYYYYY early. Anyways, I finished my art project, and I got compliments on it so I suppose I'm satisfied! After school I hung out with a friend and we shot around on the playground. I think my mom like wants us together cuz she's like "oh he's so cute! Don't you think so? Do you have a crush on him?" Geez, way to rush things. I'm never really good with shy boys. Shy boys just never click with me very well past flirting. It's easier for me when boys are confident in what they want. I wish it wasn't that way because it really limits my boy choice to JERKS. Bball practice sucked anus because I was doing horrible. My coach definitely ruined my confidence also. I was like, "I hate shooting right handed." She says, "Well you better start because your left isn't gonna do much more for you." GREAT. It's been so cold lately at school, it makes me happy =). Tomorrow I'm definitely wearing sweats to stay warm, how comfy! Hmm I need to stop my compulsive eating, it makes my stomach hurt and is really unhealthy. I've been meaning to eat a lot healthier but it's hard when your house is filled with junk food and your schedule is busy (that's thanks to basketball). Maybe I'll start of winter break when I'll have more time to think about my food choices/consumption. I better go study for my Biology test tomorrow...

So close

Tuesday. Well today was a pretty good day, actually. It was so cold i thought my tits would fall off. But, I love the cold weather. I love it because I can cozy up in jackets. I love the cold wind against my face. I love snuggling with boys =) And another thing I LOVE SNOWBOARDING. Oh man I love everything about it, even falling. I can't wait till I go up this coming weekend. FREEDOM!! Anyways my thing is working out pretty well in art. I actually like it and I'm happy with the change of plans. On a random note, I think i might sort of have a wee bitty crush on this guy, but i'm not sure about it. We'll see. After school I went to a friend's house while I watched him and his other friend play video games. Well I had basketball today, the town was only 40 minutes away (with lots of traffic) and we left 3 hours early. What did they think we were going out to ASIA? Anyways the game was alright, we lost by 3 which is awesome because no one got any playing time because no one came to practice on Friday so only the five of us that were there got to play. I played the whole time, it was rough. I made 7 points which I've been averaging every game, I wish I could make more but my shot is messed up. Anyways, Wednesday tomorrow, I hate Wednesdays the most. Hasta La Vista.

another manic monday

Alas! Monday! I know we all hate Mondays. I woke up today to my mom's screaming voice....ITS SIX THIRTY!!!! I'm suppose to get up at 6. Great, my alarm is a piece of shit. Anyways I woke up and had zero time to get ready, great way to start off the week. So I did end up ready at the usual 6:50 so we could leave....well guess what, my mom must of took a GIANT shit because our crapper flooded. Way to win one for the team mom. Anyways, so I didn't get to be early to school like I usually do (so i can do homework), but oh well at least I wasn't tardy. School was...the same...I had a new idea today in art for my caligraphy project, I hope it turns out. Fourth period as I sat in the administration office ( I TA for them) I was thinking about Winter Ball some more and I realized how much it costed me, my parents, and my grandma (who bought my dress). A total of $265! Holy shit, you'd think for that much money I'd get like some sex or something! So Winter Ball was a lot of money! Cool. Lunch was super super boring because my close friends were out sick. Everyone is really sick at my school, the flu has taken over. Anyways after school I was hanging out. There is this friend of mine, let's call him T. T always flirts with me mega time and I don't know why. I was wearing his parka today and he like climed infront of me into the parka it was really cute actually....Sigh. OH! And then I found my sweatshirt that I lost like 2 months ago! It's this awesome sweatshirt that I bought at the Goodwill store. It's grey and on the lower back it says CONTRA COSTA PLUMBING in read and it has a pic of an out house. It's so rad. Anyways, Oh yeah my friend duffy brought me my PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN soundtrack, and that's fucking tubular also. Well, I must go to basketball practice. Outtie.

another sunday

Winter ball was yesterday. All of that fussing and money...It was pretty good, I didn't have that much fun at the dance though because i didn't really dance much, which is weird becasue I usually have a lot of fun. After we went back to my friend Morgan's house. It was a lot of fun, and we had some funny laughs. Tomorrow is school...again, I didn't do my spanish homework and I don't know if i finished my math class work from friday.
Okay right now i can hear my mom from the living room shouting at the T.V. because she's rooting for someone on survivor. I hate that show. omg she just threatened someone through the t.v. she just said "JOHNNY YOU BUCK TOOTHED BASTARD!" Omg my mother is so lame.
You know what's really difficult? Having a smidge of a crush on one of your best friends from way back in elementary school. I mean it's just awkward, where's the start and finish line from being friends to being more than that? Hmm...I dont' know how to go about crossing that line and making myself clear. I don't even know if I want to. I'm not very good with getting my feelings across to boys. I tend to play hard to get and then when they have me I try and test them to see how much they can handle, it never puts me in good situations and I have no idea why I do it. Boys never understand me anyways, they don't understand my humor, not many people do.
Today I got a call from alex, it's really awkward with her on the phone, which shouldn't be the case. God i miss her sooooo much, it's almost been 6 months since i've seen her. I guess she's doing alright.
Well I guess I better go start getting ready for tomorrow, school. yuck.